I kind of cant believe im going to killarney again.
its weird because last time i went, it was post-terrible freshman year at school, and now it the same thing, but im a counselor, and this is college. my life always seems to go full circle.
when we were at the staff meeting, it was such an out of body experience. my heart was beating so fast my stomach was turning and it felt like there was something heavy in my chest and a lump in my throat.
as the list kept going and going, tears def started welling up and i grabbed hayley’s hand, and it was probably really sweaty…oops! when she read aloud my name i screamed a little bit. oh my goodness, it was crazy.
i realized that before i met august, that i was pretty fearless…and i trusted myself. i wasn’t afraid of heights, hills, rocks, or love. i wasn’t afraid of the physical or mental challenges that may lay before me or responsibiitly or all the work i knew was to come. i was merely excited to live life.
i cant wait for that to be my life again, to be actually happy and truly comfortable again and irresistible through my personality rather than my promiscuity.
this will surly be another beautiful experience that i am crawling out of my skin to begin.